No matter how much I try to ignore the feeling, I can’t help but realize we are growing apart. I know you saw me put on five pounds after we agreed that I would lose ten. And remember that one time I was going to make my bed every single morning? You know how well that one worked out. We can sit here and justify it all we want, but I didn’t put in the effort and you didn’t give me enough motivation to make it work between us.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately, and don’t get me wrong you are great in theory, flawless really. I just haven’t given you the attention you deserve. To be completely honest I only think of you between December and February. That’s not how a relationship should work. We both deserve better.
Let’s face it, you haven’t been the best for me either. The amount of anxiety and stress you cause is overwhelming. You gently remind me of my fear of failure every time I don’t meet our expectations. What should make us think it would be different in 2015?
I have big dreams and goals, but I am no longer sharing them with you. I need a more reliable relationship. A set plan that I will regularly reflect on. It’s time to take matters into my own hands and not depend on your yearly reminder of what is yet to be accomplished. From now on, I need to focus on me.
I wish you nothing but the best in 2015 and hope you make many other resolution-ers very happy.